40-day and 40-night meditation

Truth be told—the last 18 months have sucked.

It felt like my life was in a chokehold from a bully back in 6th grade. You remember, that person you dreaded passing in the hall or being paired with in a group project.  You knew you had to face them day after day and, ugh, just why? 

Every single day, I would get up, eat breakfast, get dressed, look in the mirror, and off to the bus I would go, only to face that same girl who was hell-bent on making me feel small and unworthy. I would suck it up, smile and try to pass her in the hallway without being noticed. It never worked, and day after day I fell deeper into depression.

You probably have faced a similar situation at work, school, or with a family member that irks your nerves and makes you feel trapped or increasingly smaller each time you interact.

Back then, I had support. My friends and family always had my back, but I had to muster the courage to face my demons. Now, I use methods I’ve cultivated from those early years of feeling small and unworthy.

I did a 40-day and 40-night meditation and fast where my only mantra was “clarity.” It was hell for the first two weeks. I cut out alcohol and caffeine. I meditated every morning and did yoga before bed every night. I took a spiritual bath every morning for 7 days straight and I prayed, cried, and watched my thoughts. I recited affirmations about the Universe conspiring in my favor; all I had to do was surrender to its clarity and fortune.

My life changed by the third week. 

I began to ask the Universe for clear signs and within 24 hours my questions would be answered in detail by someone calling or texting me. “Hey, I was thinking about you and…”

Even if I didn't like the message, I listened and followed.

I SURRENDERED.

Life began to move forward with new grace and ease. I watched how my thoughts and newfound clarity created order and opportunity. My ease and joy would return, slowly and surely.

I offer the same space for you at Rest Rituals. A space to surrender. Do nothing, let go, and follow your clarity.